Feelings

Been feeling a myriad of emotions lately. I guess that's the purpose of the fast to be more aware of my emotions and how I'm feeling but I swear I feel like skin tingling in anticipation of the unknown. I'm feeling my heart beat and skip to the rhythm of my thoughts both negative and positive. I feel like my eyes are crossed and my mind in cloudy and I'm walking through a fog but I'm not feeling the moisture cause my mouth feels dry. I'm feeling like my air is labored and it hurts to inhale or exhale deeply. I feel like I'm being bound and gagged and can't move. I feel helpless as if I am paralyzed from head to toe. I feel like the more I have to focus the more panic I experience. My mind is running in circles to no where, heart is confused because of the harden that is slowly happening. My spirit is wandering aimlessly through the life on auto pilot. No gas pedal or brake, I'm just on cruise leaving a trail of sparks behind.